What feels like the end of the day.

Wow. The last time I updated this, it was March 9th. So much has happened since then.

I lost my job and got cheated out of a lot of money at a time that could not have been any worse. I was finally feeling an upswing from the miserable winter, when all of this came to a head.

I faced having to leave Chicago, the home I've built for myself, to move back in with one of my parents. I spent three weeks furiously searching for new employment, which is definitely hard to do when you're unemployed.

I took a lot of handouts from a lot of friends, and even more from my family. If it weren't for my loved ones, I doubt I'd be here today. That may sound petty, but it's the truth. A person can only take so many kicks to the ribs, head and heart before vital organs stop responding.

All of these things have had me in such a horrible place, that other things from deep down have been coming up and wreaking their havoc as well. Things that I am normally able to deal with, but haven't had the strength lately to do so.

Luckily, very luckily, I just got a dream job, working with a design company just a mile or two away. Salary, benefits, standard work week, no dress code.. and it's a career builder. It's exactly what I need to get myself back on track after these five horrible months, and I'm very excited.

I guess listing things out like this really sort of robs them of their impact. 2008 has been awful. It's my sincere hope that this new job is the beginning of a quick turnaround. I'm looking forward to summer so much.

What bothers me most is that I was in such a good place—emotionally, spiritually, financially, holistically—until this year. I feel robbed of that. But I am very anxious to get it all back.

Hopefully I will be able to write more again. I want to get back into poetry. After all of this, I expect a big release. A purge of sorts.